The Circle of Life

This week has been a week of ups and downs, and honestly: I have no clue of my feelings. I don´t know how I feel. It just feels empty. A few days ago someone I loved very dearly passed away, a very dreaded event that left me shattered. At the same time I am in the middle of placement, which means witnessing the beginning of multiple lifes every single day. While my loved one has gone, I care for other people´s loved ones.

The great contrast has me wondering time and time again about the remarkable journey that is called life. While we all enter it more or less the same way and we all leave it in the same way, there´s a dozen of years in between that is filled in so differently for every single person. During the course of a lifetime we all develop our own understanding of the world; what is important and what is not. The way we think and act upon those thoughts go on to shape who the world perceives you to be. If people like you solely depends on who you are. All people have something in them that´s likeable, but sometimes you come across someone that is different. Special. You will only meet a few of them during a lifetime, but they will be of great significance in your life. My loved one has known me since I entered this world and so I never even dared to think about a life without her. When I got older I more and more started appreciating her character. The way she would talk about things, the way she would show interest in me and especially about the way she loved. Her love always felt enough. There was never a moment that I thought she didn´t love me. Only now that she has passed do I truly feel the extend in which she has changed me for the better. Her imprint on my life is so big it will never leave again, something for which I am eternally grateful. 

And so I keep on caring for moms and their babies, for I know that one day they could grow up to be someone like my loved one was for me. People that will change the lifes of others through the goodness of their own life. This week I´ve seen the beginning and the end, and there´s nothing more beautiful than that.

"If it comes; let it. If it goes; let it."